i honestly do not know if he is being treated by a specialist i hope he is, i am actually quite ashamed of how little i know of the situation.
i am not with him, he is about 25 miles away.
i am afraid to see him like this, but i need to visit him, i feel it will help me with visualization. i am afraid of telling him, because he does not understand this sort of thing and his skepticism may block me out. this may all sound crazy, as it very well may be, since the thought came to me at a crazy time in my life, but i am not going to take it out of question just because it may be deemed as crazy, im going to meditate on it more, i see it as a way that i can help for now, though it is very exhausting and takes much of my concentration power.
this is something within myself, and if it is crazy, i am not worried about it. it will hurt no one. i have nothing to lose. and my mind is too strong to be fooled by simple illusions of ego. (when i allow it to be)
i see now why chi gung healers/martial artists, have to undergo such rigorous training.
my brother is not the athletic type at all, but a couple months ago when he was feeling normal, we did some chi gung exercises and meditation and he really enjoyed it. i regret not taking advantage of this moment when i couldve showed him a new way of life, or atleast something that wouldve kept his energy strong.
so confused...i have to meditate very deeply tonight.
i am not with him, he is about 25 miles away.
i am afraid to see him like this, but i need to visit him, i feel it will help me with visualization. i am afraid of telling him, because he does not understand this sort of thing and his skepticism may block me out. this may all sound crazy, as it very well may be, since the thought came to me at a crazy time in my life, but i am not going to take it out of question just because it may be deemed as crazy, im going to meditate on it more, i see it as a way that i can help for now, though it is very exhausting and takes much of my concentration power.
this is something within myself, and if it is crazy, i am not worried about it. it will hurt no one. i have nothing to lose. and my mind is too strong to be fooled by simple illusions of ego. (when i allow it to be)
i see now why chi gung healers/martial artists, have to undergo such rigorous training.
my brother is not the athletic type at all, but a couple months ago when he was feeling normal, we did some chi gung exercises and meditation and he really enjoyed it. i regret not taking advantage of this moment when i couldve showed him a new way of life, or atleast something that wouldve kept his energy strong.
so confused...i have to meditate very deeply tonight.
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