Alright, I'm new to practicing Buddhism and I just gave a shot at not being sexually driven (aka horney) for the hopes that someday I can think about these women with a 'trained mind'.
4 days I went..4 DAYS! Man, and it felt good. No whacking, and did pretty well at not lusting hardcore. I slipped a few times sitting in class, but caught myself quickly. Then Saturday night comes and I'm stranded in town, so I go to this chick's dorm. She gladly accepts me, and her and her roomate are getting all giggly and I really want to sleep. One of them said I could share the bed with them instead of sleeping on the floor..so I mean come on!! It went through my head, but the floor was hard, and I just really wanted to sleep. So I climb in bed with her, and she starts moaning pathetically, and I laughed. After the small talk she informs me that she rolls a lot in her sleep...
Yes, she rubbed on me indirectly. Alright. So 4 days. What did they amount to? Nothing. I slipped. We messed around, and I kinda laugh at it now, but man, I should have had more control over that situation you know?! My question is how is one to keep a steady and focused mind on a constant happiness when females make this an extremely difficult task?! Jeez!
Wow, honestly, how many guys ask how to keep women away?
4 days I went..4 DAYS! Man, and it felt good. No whacking, and did pretty well at not lusting hardcore. I slipped a few times sitting in class, but caught myself quickly. Then Saturday night comes and I'm stranded in town, so I go to this chick's dorm. She gladly accepts me, and her and her roomate are getting all giggly and I really want to sleep. One of them said I could share the bed with them instead of sleeping on the floor..so I mean come on!! It went through my head, but the floor was hard, and I just really wanted to sleep. So I climb in bed with her, and she starts moaning pathetically, and I laughed. After the small talk she informs me that she rolls a lot in her sleep...
Yes, she rubbed on me indirectly. Alright. So 4 days. What did they amount to? Nothing. I slipped. We messed around, and I kinda laugh at it now, but man, I should have had more control over that situation you know?! My question is how is one to keep a steady and focused mind on a constant happiness when females make this an extremely difficult task?! Jeez!
Wow, honestly, how many guys ask how to keep women away?
Comment