Hello.
For a long time, it was my plan to go to Henan to pratice and study the way of Shaolin on a devotional basis.
I am 17 years old now and i left highschool last year, so i could earn some money and travel to China to find a suitable school.
With suitable, I mean a school in the countryside where you get up early in the morning every day and practise and study gong fu, qi gong and buddhism... you know, the classic image people have.
And just to mention it, I like alot what is written on this page: http://www.shaolins.com
Beyond training wushu in a club, I also intensively study Mandarin Chinese at the moment.
But now this SARS epidemic has come up out of nowhere. Try to imagine, I left everything i had, my friends at school and so on. All the educational hopes and expectations my family had to me, is gone. I'm a no-body now.
But i knew this would be the sacrifice i had to make. I knew it was going to be hard to break out the wheel of my society and culture. This is why i have to leave now, and whether i wil be back or not is unpredictable.
I have everything I need to set out my huge and dangerous journey out in the world.
Except, suddenly, I can't go because of this lungdisease.
This was a major blow. If I don't do anything really fast, I dare not think of what will happen to me.
This is why I turn to you for help. It is very sad and frustrating that I can not go to China right now. But I have clinged enough to the hope of China being accible within a short period of time. It's time to face the truth.
I have heard about Shaolin schools/temples in Canada and USA.. even in Hungary. But does any of these have the same dedication to what it's all about? I mean are any of these places non-profit and using 6 hours or more every day for practise (with the same degree of dicipline and dedication as those in China)?
If so, or nearly so, i will go there until the situation in China is better. Because I'm gonna rot away if I continue this lonely, decaying way of life.
I know that all in all, I should try to make the best out where I am now. To do things I normally would not dare, because i fear to look like a fool. To free oneself from unneccesary burdens. A lot of you would probably reply with this blasphemy (no accuse ). And yes, it so true as it can be.
But it's not going to happen where I am now, because i want to learn some real gong fu, and this is just not possible here! Nothing really happens in the club i am training in, and people in this club are lost in useless habits, and noone have any true ambitions.
It was probably also stupid of me to leave highschool, but I had been seriously dreaming about shaolin since i was 13.
I love to learn and absorb things very fast. Therefore, is was definately not easy to leave school. I was not able to look anyone in the eyes for several months. Because i know, that noone of this society will understand me.
I certainly not expect that either.. eventhough to me, it's all very clear: I have figured out what i want to do in my life, and why i must do it, and they haven't. (at least not why)
But all that is a totally different topic.. Maybe I should have posted this in the "Personalities and Community Members"-section
But, the main question remains:
Are there any schools outside of China in which you think I will fit?
For a long time, it was my plan to go to Henan to pratice and study the way of Shaolin on a devotional basis.
I am 17 years old now and i left highschool last year, so i could earn some money and travel to China to find a suitable school.
With suitable, I mean a school in the countryside where you get up early in the morning every day and practise and study gong fu, qi gong and buddhism... you know, the classic image people have.
And just to mention it, I like alot what is written on this page: http://www.shaolins.com
Beyond training wushu in a club, I also intensively study Mandarin Chinese at the moment.
But now this SARS epidemic has come up out of nowhere. Try to imagine, I left everything i had, my friends at school and so on. All the educational hopes and expectations my family had to me, is gone. I'm a no-body now.
But i knew this would be the sacrifice i had to make. I knew it was going to be hard to break out the wheel of my society and culture. This is why i have to leave now, and whether i wil be back or not is unpredictable.
I have everything I need to set out my huge and dangerous journey out in the world.
Except, suddenly, I can't go because of this lungdisease.
This was a major blow. If I don't do anything really fast, I dare not think of what will happen to me.
This is why I turn to you for help. It is very sad and frustrating that I can not go to China right now. But I have clinged enough to the hope of China being accible within a short period of time. It's time to face the truth.
I have heard about Shaolin schools/temples in Canada and USA.. even in Hungary. But does any of these have the same dedication to what it's all about? I mean are any of these places non-profit and using 6 hours or more every day for practise (with the same degree of dicipline and dedication as those in China)?
If so, or nearly so, i will go there until the situation in China is better. Because I'm gonna rot away if I continue this lonely, decaying way of life.
I know that all in all, I should try to make the best out where I am now. To do things I normally would not dare, because i fear to look like a fool. To free oneself from unneccesary burdens. A lot of you would probably reply with this blasphemy (no accuse ). And yes, it so true as it can be.
But it's not going to happen where I am now, because i want to learn some real gong fu, and this is just not possible here! Nothing really happens in the club i am training in, and people in this club are lost in useless habits, and noone have any true ambitions.
It was probably also stupid of me to leave highschool, but I had been seriously dreaming about shaolin since i was 13.
I love to learn and absorb things very fast. Therefore, is was definately not easy to leave school. I was not able to look anyone in the eyes for several months. Because i know, that noone of this society will understand me.
I certainly not expect that either.. eventhough to me, it's all very clear: I have figured out what i want to do in my life, and why i must do it, and they haven't. (at least not why)
But all that is a totally different topic.. Maybe I should have posted this in the "Personalities and Community Members"-section
But, the main question remains:
Are there any schools outside of China in which you think I will fit?
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